♥ Calena Rae ♥

ok so i dont want this to take forever - but it probably will

 

biggest news of them all? PEACE OUT CARLOW DORMS! woot woot. our appeal letters did some damage and we got letters in our mailboxes saying that we got permission to move out! that day was probably the happiest day of my life thus far! monroeville here i come.  i can't wait to quit kuhns - im so sick of it.

 

speaking of kuhns - i saw john this past weekend and he didn't say a word to me on friday night  but since i worked late on friday and early on saturday who was the first person i see when i walk in on saturday morning? yeah. john. i didn't say anything but he clocked out as i was waiting to get my drawer, so he tapped me on my back and was like "hey wassupp" so i said "hi"  i haven't decided on whether or not to just give in and be civil with him...he's really given me no reason to let him have that pleasure... two weekends ago when i saw him and he asked me for a hug and asked me to be my friend, i told him that i want to - only bc thats the kind of person that i am - but he's given me no reason to let it happen.  and he said "ok, no hard feeling." LIKE WTF. if he honestly wanted to be my friend and it meant THAT much to him, he would have fought with me about it.  why would he miss me? why does he care. im moving to monroeville isn't it just pointless to try to restart a friendship from a friendship/summerfling gone wrong - esp when ill be 25 mins away and neither of us drive? im pretty sure im better off w/o him -  it just sucks that everytime i see him that tinsy winsy piece of my heart that knows he'll give me all the attention i want SCREAMS at me. oh well - i've done really really good. i'm very proud of myself bc its so easy to give into someone that makes your world disappear and your knees go weak everytime he kisses you.  but i can't focus on that...the rest of my heart knows that he made me feel like shit 75% of the time i talked to him - 25% happiness isn't worth it.

 

My parents and i are getting along real well lately - im really happy that they have finally half come to terms with the fact that im moving out... my mom said she got really depressed the other day bc she was thinking how this would be the first christmas i didn't wake up at home and i was like "FORGET THAT! im sleepinng at home!" haha. i think it surprised her.  shan and i are uber excited about this apartment...life is finally going as planned - (knock on wood) - all i need is a guy - but im pretty happy w/ being single for now!

 

haha this is longer than i wanted it to be, but karen yelled at me bc i needed to update - so this is for you karen! gotta go clean talk to you all later!

October 10, 2007

 

 

To Whom It May Concern:

 

I am writing this appeal letter in disagreement with the dorm agreement that I signed in April of 2007.  After rereading the agreement, I do see that it states that this “is a binding contract for housing and food service for the complete academic year – both fall and spring semesters.”  However, I do not agree with this, and it wasn’t until after I had signed it that I realized the agreement had been changed.  This agreement is not a lease for an apartment, nor would a reimbursement check be required to be written, since I pay semester by semester.  As a junior, and having resided here both my freshman and sophomore years, when handed the agreement (not being warned that there were changes), I skimmed the material, saw that the meal plan, room charges, rules and damage policy were explained, and signed my name.  Not only would I have not been allowed to move in had I not signed the agreement, but no one had explained that there were changes made to the agreement. 

 

Since I was a freshman in high school, my dream college had always been the University of Pittsburgh.  Throughout my college search, I researched Carlow and applied.  Knowing that no matter what, I was going to choose Pitt, I narrowed my choices down to Carlow and Pitt.  I visited both schools, and was impressed by both.  However, when I stepped foot onto Carlow’s campus, I felt welcome – and felt as if I mattered.  I fell in love with the atmosphere of Carlow, the student to teacher ratio, the small class size, and felt as if my decisions would be taken into consideration all throughout my academic career.  However, with this situation, I feel as if at Carlow, I don’t matter, and that my needs and happiness with the University are not taken into consideration. 

 

I am not happy with my residence in the dorms.  I am miserable and it is starting to affect my schoolwork.  The food does not appeal to me, and what does, makes me ill – which causes me to pay more money than I already do to live here, and I do not feel that I should have to pay for something that, for one, I do not want, and secondly, makes me unhappy.  As a freshman, moving into the dorms was one step closer to becoming responsible, moving away from my parents, and being able to manage my time wisely.  As a sophomore, and after already residing in the dorms for a year, there were more aspects to my life that I had to manage – I had a job, I had made friends freshman year, and my school work load was tougher.  Throughout all this time, my number one priority, and what is still my number one priority is my academic career and the responsibility of being able to pay for my college career. 

 

In order for me to pay for schooling I have taken out loans, in addition to the grants and scholarships I receive from the school.  While in school, I work on the weekends and make payments on my loans.  However, in order to make a sufficient difference in the amount I’m going to have to pay when I get out of school, I need to be available to work more than just weekend hours. 

 

I feel as if all the reasons listed above are valid reasons for me to resign from the dorms.  In addition, the Carlow Mission statement reads: 

 

“The Mission of Carlow University, a Catholic liberal arts university, is to involve persons, primarily women, in a process of self-directed, lifelong learning which will free them to think clearly and creatively, to discover and to challenge or affirm cultural and aesthetic values, to respond reverently and sensitively to God and others, and to render competent and compassionate service in personal and professional life.”

 

It is unfortunate for me to say that I do not feel that not allowing me to move out of the dorms, which I have not yet paid for Spring Semester, is allowing me to continue with my “lifelong learning.”  Being contained in a dorm room does not allow my opportunity for growth in my studies, and does not allow me to think clearly because there is so much distraction.  This is yet another reason that moving off campus would be beneficial to me.  The dorms are noisy and there are constantly people running up and down the hallways.  I realize that there is no way that I can stop the distraction in the dorms, yet I can remove myself from the situation, which I am choosing to do, so that my grades do not suffer.  If Carlow’s mission is to make an experienced and compassionate service in my personal and professional life, then I should be allowed to remove myself from the dormitory building – in order for me to grow personally and professionally, I need to give myself that opportunity, and I feel that staying in the dorms is reducing that chance.  It would be very unfortunate if I would have to withdraw from the University on these accounts.

 

 

 

 

how sad is it that it has come to this?!

1: Is there anyone on your mindsay friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
well my only friends are karen and shanna - sooooo no. haha

 

2. What side of the bed do you usually sleep on?
whatever side i get comfy on

 

3. Have you ever had sex with someone that you hated?
well, i don't really like them now. but at the time, no.

 

4. Pork, beef, or chicken???
chicken.

 

5. Have you ever had to pull over on the side of the road to puke?
lmao yes, rather, shanna pulled over.

 

6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
uhhno?

 

7. Shower or bath?
shower.

 

8. Do you pee in the shower?
haha.

 

9. Mexican or Chinese?
chinese

 

10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed? 
umm idk hah 

 

11. Do you love someone on your mindsay friends?
omg yes. more than life.

 

12. Have you ever slept with anyone on your mindsay friends?
ive slept in the same bed as shanna

 

13. Love or money? 
definitely love.

 

  14. Credit cards or cash? 
plastic.

 

15. Has there ever been anyone in your family you wish wasn't?
sometimes. but not constantly

 

16. Would you rather go camping or to a 5 star hotel?
either or.

 

17. Vagina????

va j j

 

18. Would you shave your entire body (including your head)? 
not.

 

19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
yessirrrrr & puked there too!

 

20. Ever been to a bar?
mmmhm

 

21. Ever danced on a table at a bar/club? 
yeahhh

 

22. Ever been so drunk you had to be carried out of somewhere?   
nope. 

 

23. Kissed someone of the same sex?
mmhm

 

24. Thrown up from drinking too much?
ew yes.

 

25. Had sex in a car? 
no.

 

26. Had sex in a movie theater? 
almost.

 

27. Had sex in a bathroom? 
nope.

 

28. Had sex at work?
no - but i should have!

 

29. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
yepp

 

31. Have you been caught having sex?

negative.

 

32. Have you ever kissed a stranger?
yeah

 

33. Does anyone have naughty pics of you? 
hahah. just pics of my boobs - but they're supposed to be deleted haha.

ew. ew. as if this apartment business wasn't stressful enough...there's just more to add to the fucking silver platter

 

so shanna and i wanna move out...we've looked at some places, and finally decided on this one in monroeville - i haven't seen it yet but shanna said its cute, plus, its cheap.  ok. so my parents are completely against me living in monroeville.  they think its too far away from home blah blah blah...personally, i just think they're having a rough time with the idea of me moving away in general.  but i feel like monroeville is perfect...its the same distance from both shannas house and mine, since we live in completely opposite directions - its close enough to school - shanna can have her car - the food won't suck - and there are TONS of job opportunities.  i honestly don't see any problem with it.  but basically, im doing what i want bc im 20 years old.

 

anyhowwwwww we sign the papers and turn in our application for this place tomorrow. exciting right? NOT. i find out today that we signed a contract that says we will live in the dorms for the full year. not only is that bullshit..but how are they going to trap us in here, when we're paying them to live here? i dont get it.

 

this sucks. hard core. all i wanna do is cry right now bc i dont know what im going to do if the director of student life says that "we can't move out."  i can't talk to my parents about it bc then they will just throw back the "i told you so bullshit - you shouldn't move out" it fucking sucks. i honestly want to do nothing but cry. it seems as if everything goes soooo well along the lines of this apt business, and then something just happens to fuck it all up. i can't live at home bc then ill fail college. but i guess if it comes down to it, thats where im gunna be. and im going to be miserable.  i  hate living at school - the food sucks, its hot, and both shanna and crystal are def moving out - so im not living by myself.  i can't pay for living in the dorms & rent at the same time...its just not possible at all. so i dont know what to do...this situation blows.

 

hopefully the director of student life sees things our way - but she probably wont...but i guess thats just how things go. you guys will have lots of miserable blogs to look forward to - so get excited.

how horrible is it that i am COMPLETELY over school ALREADY!? I'm only a month and some days in, and i want it to be christmas break already.  my classes are so hard - well, i wouldn't say hard, but so boring - and hard to pay attention to.  I have all my education methods courses, so i dont learn any new information - im learning how to teach the information i already know. AH! plus, all my classes are 3 hours long. its ridiculous.

 

ok. im gunna stop bitching.

 

actually - i lie. i cannot wait to move out. shanna and i are going to get an apartment - probably in monroeville, and I CANNOT WAIT. paying rent and shit is going to suck, but the pros outway the cons incredibly.  I can't wait to get a new job - im so sick of working at the shithole im at. i've met some good people, but at the same time, i've met people that i just need to get away from. its just time to move on.

 

this mindsay thing is pretty cool - better than myspace in a COMPLETELY different way - less creepos for one, and I'm so much more prone to blog, than to spend hours upon hours looking at peoples profiles on myspace.  all these sites are addicting tho - and just add to my procrastinating problem. haha.

 

allright well, i just got out of class - and have another one at 230 - so i'm going back to sleep

 

until next time :-D